I love you too
Nov. 1st, 2009 02:29 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hikarinonijiJust a daydream I wrote down : D
"Tell me you love me."
You look at me with your beautiful brown eyes and frown a little. I feel how my knees get weaker as I look into them, so I turn away for a bit unable to look straight at you because of them. You want to say something but I'm faster, "you don't have to mean it. I just wanna hear you say those words to me."
Again, you frown and you fold your arms, in something that I know is an unconscious defense. Like you are trying to protect yourself. For what? My words? I don't know it, and I don't think you know it either.
"If I don't mean it, than what is the use in saying it?"
You got me there, and now it's my turn to frown. Stupid. I pout a little, but as expected it doesn't have any effect on you, who look at me with stern eyes.
Bastard. Don't look at me like that. Again I turn my head so I don't have to face you.
"Because they are just words," I answer, knowing that it's angers you. I always know how to say the wrong things. And even though I know, I always make the same mistake by saying it.
I'm right, you turn around so I can see nothing but your back, but I know your face is set on thunder and storm right now. I know you too well, and I also know that 'love' is a sensitive subject. You always say it's something precious that has to be taken care of with gentleness and patience. But what I don't have any patience left, and I just wanna get it over with?
I hear you sigh and you run a hand trough your hair. For a moment I forget our conversation and wonder why your hair always seems to fall perfect no matter what you do with it. I get the strange urge to pour water over your head to see if it keeps looking as perfect as always but your voice snaps me back to reality.
"Why do you always do this stuff to yourself?"
I don't know what you're talking about, so I wait 'till you continue. But you keep silent, so I'm forced to an answer, "do what?"
You turn around again, and the first thing I see is a certain sadness in your eyes. One that I cannot describe, but I know it's my fault that it's there.Now I want to hug you, but instead I shuffle backwards, causing the distance between us to grow, as if it might take that sadness away. It doesn't. It was a nice try anyway.
"Always pushing all the warmth out of feelings, making it lose its value. Saying you don't care about it. Making it useless. Don't you realize you hurt not only other people, but also yourself with it? Denying everything you crave for, and when it's almost there saying you didn't want it in the first place. Why won't you face love, as pure as it is?"
Your voice trembles, and I feel bad for you. I don't need love. I just wanted to hear those words. Like a confirmation it could be said to me. Or so I think. My heart skips a beat as it silently protests before I answer coldly, "because I don't need love."
You keep silent for a moment, and it scares me. I want to say that you're scary when you don't respond to my answers but you open your mouth and there is only one word escaping your lips.
"Liar."
I want to protest but as soon as I feel your strong arms around my waist, and your sweet lips crushing into mine I think you might be right.
Our lips part, and you pull be closer in a warm embrace. Your hand runs trough my hair, and I wonder if I should do the same knowing it won't ruin your hairdo anyway.
But then my world stops for a second, leaving nothing but the pink bliss I tried to run away from for so long. I feel your breath in my neck, as I hear the words I craved for. For a second it crosses my mind that there indeed is a difference between words well meant or not, but I don't have the time to think more about, because your lips capture mine again. As your words keep circling trough my head I answer in my mind, hoping that it reaches you.
"I love you too."
I'm sorry for taking so long with Best Rivals D: It's halfway done, and the ending of the chapter is in my head but every time I try to write it down... It sucks :/ So yeah... I'M HAVING IT DONE BEFORE THE END OF NEXT WEEK I PROMISE!
Okay, now about the drabble. I was daydreaming and this soft of happened in my head.
Now for me, it was me and Yabu. It's true that as the story describes I don't think much of love ^^;; Maybe because in my 18 years I've never been in love with someone before. I mean... I can't really say I'm IN love with Yabu, because I only know the person he is on TV and all. I do know I love that person, but it's different from being IN love... I suppose. I don't know honestly XDD
So I left away names and genders on purpose. So you can imagine either your favorite couple, or yourself with your favorite idol : D
Comments are always loved : D So are critics~
Thank you for reading~! : D
"Tell me you love me."
You look at me with your beautiful brown eyes and frown a little. I feel how my knees get weaker as I look into them, so I turn away for a bit unable to look straight at you because of them. You want to say something but I'm faster, "you don't have to mean it. I just wanna hear you say those words to me."
Again, you frown and you fold your arms, in something that I know is an unconscious defense. Like you are trying to protect yourself. For what? My words? I don't know it, and I don't think you know it either.
"If I don't mean it, than what is the use in saying it?"
You got me there, and now it's my turn to frown. Stupid. I pout a little, but as expected it doesn't have any effect on you, who look at me with stern eyes.
Bastard. Don't look at me like that. Again I turn my head so I don't have to face you.
"Because they are just words," I answer, knowing that it's angers you. I always know how to say the wrong things. And even though I know, I always make the same mistake by saying it.
I'm right, you turn around so I can see nothing but your back, but I know your face is set on thunder and storm right now. I know you too well, and I also know that 'love' is a sensitive subject. You always say it's something precious that has to be taken care of with gentleness and patience. But what I don't have any patience left, and I just wanna get it over with?
I hear you sigh and you run a hand trough your hair. For a moment I forget our conversation and wonder why your hair always seems to fall perfect no matter what you do with it. I get the strange urge to pour water over your head to see if it keeps looking as perfect as always but your voice snaps me back to reality.
"Why do you always do this stuff to yourself?"
I don't know what you're talking about, so I wait 'till you continue. But you keep silent, so I'm forced to an answer, "do what?"
You turn around again, and the first thing I see is a certain sadness in your eyes. One that I cannot describe, but I know it's my fault that it's there.Now I want to hug you, but instead I shuffle backwards, causing the distance between us to grow, as if it might take that sadness away. It doesn't. It was a nice try anyway.
"Always pushing all the warmth out of feelings, making it lose its value. Saying you don't care about it. Making it useless. Don't you realize you hurt not only other people, but also yourself with it? Denying everything you crave for, and when it's almost there saying you didn't want it in the first place. Why won't you face love, as pure as it is?"
Your voice trembles, and I feel bad for you. I don't need love. I just wanted to hear those words. Like a confirmation it could be said to me. Or so I think. My heart skips a beat as it silently protests before I answer coldly, "because I don't need love."
You keep silent for a moment, and it scares me. I want to say that you're scary when you don't respond to my answers but you open your mouth and there is only one word escaping your lips.
"Liar."
I want to protest but as soon as I feel your strong arms around my waist, and your sweet lips crushing into mine I think you might be right.
Our lips part, and you pull be closer in a warm embrace. Your hand runs trough my hair, and I wonder if I should do the same knowing it won't ruin your hairdo anyway.
But then my world stops for a second, leaving nothing but the pink bliss I tried to run away from for so long. I feel your breath in my neck, as I hear the words I craved for. For a second it crosses my mind that there indeed is a difference between words well meant or not, but I don't have the time to think more about, because your lips capture mine again. As your words keep circling trough my head I answer in my mind, hoping that it reaches you.
"I love you too."
I'm sorry for taking so long with Best Rivals D: It's halfway done, and the ending of the chapter is in my head but every time I try to write it down... It sucks :/ So yeah... I'M HAVING IT DONE BEFORE THE END OF NEXT WEEK I PROMISE!
Okay, now about the drabble. I was daydreaming and this soft of happened in my head.
Now for me, it was me and Yabu. It's true that as the story describes I don't think much of love ^^;; Maybe because in my 18 years I've never been in love with someone before. I mean... I can't really say I'm IN love with Yabu, because I only know the person he is on TV and all. I do know I love that person, but it's different from being IN love... I suppose. I don't know honestly XDD
So I left away names and genders on purpose. So you can imagine either your favorite couple, or yourself with your favorite idol : D
Comments are always loved : D So are critics~
Thank you for reading~! : D
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on 2009-11-01 05:10 am (UTC)how it just allows anyone to get into it because they could be imagining anyone
and the writing is just beautiful
well done! XD
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on 2009-11-01 12:47 pm (UTC)Ah~ Thank you very much! : D
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on 2009-11-01 09:25 am (UTC)yaaay!! i will wait for the next chap from you.. XDDDDDDDD
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on 2009-11-01 12:46 pm (UTC)Haha, yes I'll write soon!
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on 2009-11-02 05:09 pm (UTC)well i was waiting for characters, i imagined HSJ pairings but failed. when i read half-through i started again realizing there are no characters, this time imagining myself...with INOO XD and i just died twice...
i read it two and a half in total and took both parts. LOVE IT!
~you and other LJ users converted me into liking HikaNooBu so taKE RESPONSIBILITY! give me best rivals LOL hahahahahahahaha
thanks for writing something to get us through the waiting
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on 2009-11-05 04:27 am (UTC)Yeah, it's up now XD